Today is my blog’s 2nd birthday. Woo hoo! And I have to say, I’m really proud of myself. I started this blog because I wanted to write a book and this seemed like the best way to force myself to show my writing to other people and to develop content. I also wanted to prove to myself, and to others, that sharing our vulnerabilities is the best way to accept ourselves.
I did not, however, expect to make so many meaningful connections with other people–even though intellectually I knew this is also one of the benefits of sharing our vulnerabilities. And I did not expect my blog to be the best therapy I’ve ever received.
I know a lot of people share tips on how to have a successful blog on their birthdays, but I thought I’d share the things I’ve learned about myself through blogging that have made my life better instead.
1. Self-care is hard work. As a therapist, I preach about self-care all the time. And I thought I was pretty good about taking care of myself. But through blogging, I now realize there have been obstacles to my self-care that I have overlooked because I think I am superhuman.
Like, if I play tennis 6 times in a row, I’m too tired to function the next day. And it hurts my knees. Or if I spend all my energy on helping my family and my clients and my romantic partners, I get depressed. And I have a lot of expectations about how much I should be able to do that my body and mind don’t always agree with.
So now I treat taking care of myself as though my life depends on it. And it kind of does.
2. I can have more faith in God. I used to spend a lot of time worrying about the fact that I have very little money in savings. Or that if I were to become disabled, I don’t have anyone else’s income to rely on. Or if I were to fall and couldn’t get up, no one would find me until I didn’t show up for my tennis match. Which is partly why I play so much.
I’m not going to lie and say I don’t worry about those things anymore, but I worry about them less. Because blogging has shown me that somehow, things always work out. Like that time when I had a nail in my tire and my ex just happened to see it and let me know.
So I try to stop worrying so much about how things will work out and just trust that God will take care of me.
3. It pays to be nice to yourself. I used to spend a lot of time motivating myself with shame. Yelling at myself to get out of bed, get off the couch, go to work, and go to the grocery store like a normal person. Other people who have spouses and kids do it. What’s your excuse? But practicing compassion has helped tremendously, and I accomplish much more by motivating myself with kindness than I do with shame.
So now I tell myself things like, I’m doing the best that I can. And I really am.
4. I can be alone and still feel loved. Before I started my blog, I had been in relationships non-stop since I was 14. The thought of not being in one was anxiety-provoking. Now I’ve been single for almost 2 years, and it is the most mentally stable I’ve ever felt. Apparently, relationships make me crazy. But more importantly, I have become much more aware of how many people are there for me. My family loves me. My friends look out for me. Even readers care about when I’m having a bad day.
Perhaps some day I will find someone who I can add to this list, but in the mean time, I’m pretty happy with things just as they are.
That’s it for this year. Looking forward to seeing the person I become in the next year. And thanks for accompanying me on the journey!
Congrats on the two years! Glad to see blogging has been an avenue of self-discovery for you. That’s one of the best benefits of all.
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Thanks Carrie!
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Happy Blog Birthday! Just in case you didn’t already know, I have some of the same issues that you do and your blog is an encouragement to me, especially when I tend to really beat myself up and feeling guilty because I can’t be there for everyone and be everything for everyone. It also doesn’t hurt me any that I work with you!! Congrats!!
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Thanks Janice! It’s always nice to know who is reading it!
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Congrats on sticking with blogging. I’m coming up on my one year anniversary. It’s a labor of love, for sure.
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Thanks! It takes a lot more discipline by the 1.5 year mark.
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Two-year congrats. Self-care gets easier and easier as you grow. It becomes automatic and you find that you really do love yourself. Take care and enjoy this next year. 🙂
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Thanks Susan!
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This is a lovely retrospective and reflective post, Christy, and I feel privileged to have read it. Last time I looked on the Facebook page of NAMI MN there was a t-shirt being advertised that said “Normal is overrated.” I think it was a fundraising thing, and the motto no longer seems connected to the organization in any way. But occasionally I get a little fiesty about that one myself, and take a training break. 😉
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Thanks Paula! I think it’s kind of nice that most people embrace not being normal these days 😀
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