I am a terrible runner. That’s why I decided to take up running 16 years ago. I like to challenge myself to do things I suck at. I wanted to prove to myself that I could run for more than 5 minutes. My husband at the time, being the competitive athlete that he was, said he would train with me if we ran a 5K at the end. Which was intimidating, but I liked the idea of having a running partner, so I agreed to do it.
So we started a 10 week program for beginners. By the last week you were supposed to be able to run for 35 minutes. I couldn’t imagine getting to that point, but in the first week you only had to walk for 2 minutes and run for 1 minute for 7 laps, which was totally doable. So I just focused on my goal for that week and trusted that if I did that every week I would be able to run for 35 minutes by the end, whether I could imagine it or not.
We never made it to the last week but we ran the race, anyway. And it was even more embarrassing than I imagined. We were so far behind everyone else that we couldn’t see a single runner ahead of us. We were even behind the police officer who was supposed to follow the last runner, so we missed part of the route and ran past the finish line in the wrong direction. We assumed people were supposed to cheer when you got to the end, but no one did. So we kept running.
The police officer realized his mistake and told us to run around the block to make up for the segment of the route we missed. We came in second to last, and I finished the race in 36 minutes. But I came in 3rd place in my age group because there were only 3 people in it. I love awards, so I was like, woo hoo! When is the next race?
So we ran 5Ks for a few years before I rediscovered tennis. It always hurt, I never got runner’s high, and I hated everything about it except the sense of accomplishment when I crossed the finish line. Sometimes I would place if it were a small race, but I was still always one of the last runners. Women pushing baby carriages would pass me by. Sometimes I was barely in front of the walkers. But I just focused on my goal, which was to run faster than I did in the last race.
I’ve been struggling lately with posts where bloggers say how many followers they have or how many views a particular post has gotten. It makes me feel like I’m wasting my time. Sometimes it makes me want to give up. But I don’t. Because even if I don’t have a large audience, I know my blog means a great deal to the small group of people who read it. And that small group of people is still larger than the number of clients I see in a week.
Recently I decided that I would use my running mentality whenever I read a post with numbers in it. I will focus on writing and promoting and trust that in the end, I will get to where I want to be. I will focus on my own progress rather than on the people who are passing me by. I will focus on my own race.
So far so good.
As for the running per se, I’m saying goodbye to my running shoes because my ortho told me not to run because it’s bad for my back. For the lesson from running, I am also trying to do that. Focusing on my own race, on my own pace and keeping my eyes on the prize. Great post!
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I’ve stopped running, too, because it’s too hard on my body. But to be honest, it’s not a big loss. Still, the lesson about running my own race was a valuable one. One of the few times I was able to refrain from comparing myself to others. Thanks for sharing!
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I like this comparison. It is hard not to compare when I read bloggers posting about hitting whatever # of followers – but then I have to remind myself why I enjoy blogging and what I do it for. So yes, very much like running (which I also do and also use to hate).
Thanks Louise! Glad to know I’m not alone!
You’re definitely not alone. We all start small. After six months of blogging, I was ready to throw in the towel because of the small following. But a friend said, “You’re still in diapers!” I’ve move up to training pants, but like you, I’ve come to accept that no matter how many (or few) followers I have, it’s the quality, not quantity.
Thanks Diane! I agree about the quality part. Sometimes I’ll look at my old posts and think, what is wrong with those people who aren’t reading it?! 😉
🙂 I have to remind myself that I’m not writing for others but for me. It should be about me releasing whatever I need to let go of and not about getting my posts read or liked by any number of people, though that’s also great.
Glad to know other people feel the same way. I’m usually pretty good about it, but some posts lead to comparison more than others.
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